I've never had "good sex" before because of how hard I have pursued Black politics, and with me being 28, I literally pursued Black politics before I became sexually active. I was 19 years old getting into Black politics in 2015 and became sexually active when I was 24. And to tell you the truth, because of how loyal to the Black race I am I have probably turned down or passed people who could have provided "good sex," because they weren't of the same mindset as me. I have never even achieved an orgasm with ANYONE before, not the 10 people I have had sexual intercourse with, and not even the 24 people in total I have fooled around with. I have had some good sexual experiences, but those were few and far in between. Throughout my sexual encounters, I have been the one aiming to please while that same level of effort was never really given to me. And so I stopped using dating apps because the people on dating sites provide nothing but below average sex and a lack of interest in you after the deed is done. Almost always they would have achieved an orgasm, so I don't think the sexual abilities I have worked on since becoming sexually active are lackluster. Communication is still important cause you can't have sex with different people the exact same as there is no guarantee that will be pleasurable to them. I've had people do things to me that seemed kinda random when that doesn't even turn me on. Like putting their feet on my dick... I'm not even into feet 🫤. Being asexual makes me less interested in sex than other people. Specifically casual sex. I've also learned that I am demisexual and prefer building a bit of a relationship with someone so that I can like them so that I would be more likely to entertain the idea of sex. So as of right now, I haven't had sex in more than half a year. Could have sworn the last time was summer of last year but I don't remember exactly. I also haven't been seriously seeking out sex with anyone. I also do not really have faith in the sexual abilities of others anymore.
